wow..it's hard to believe i only have 10 weeks left in this marathon of a journey I have been on for the last 8 months of my life. I often feel ask if I have been running a race, and I'm rounding the corner and I can see the checkered flag in sight. My knees hurt, my heart is pounding, and I still entertain the thought of " I can't do this". If you know me at all, then you know I HATE running. I think it's one of the most torturous things we can do to our bodies, BUT I know that the outcome is usually something worthwhile and the since of accomplishment is like no other.
That's kinda of how I've felt over the last months. I have had to push myself in ways I never dreamed I'd have to. Often times I've wanted to give up and just cry and stomp my feet and say I can't do it, or I don't want to do this anymore. The difference about real life and running a marathon is that often times you can't give up, especially when you're caring a life inside of you. You just have to keep going, and trusting that the outcome is going to be so worth it.
So I will continue to run this marathon of my life, and then my life will change DRASTICALLY. I have often questioned my ability to be a good parent and make the right choices for myself, and especially for the baby over these last few months. Finally I am happy to say...I am at peace with parenting, and I feel confident in my abilities. Do I still get sad about the lifestyle change? Sure I do. There will be no more single and carefree Tina. Now my life will consist of family outings to parks, and pretty much everything kid related, with small breaks in between. I can honestly say that I'm ok with it. There will be hard times I'm sure, but if I can make it through what I've been through in this last 30 weeks, then shoot...I feel like I can make it through almost anything.
Soooo stay tuned. My sweet angel (just like her momma ;) baby will be here before we know it. I can't wait for you guys to meet her!
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